hoping it will all go away?

Well, what a long time between Blogs! I have started one a number of times and commented on others but........?!
I have been wondering why it's taken so long and have come up with the usual stuff but if I'm really honest, I think my main reason would have to be that I don't like posting something that I think isn't 'worthy' .....whatever that means! I tend to worry about things by going very quiet and hoping that they will go away. (ie I don't join in with Ofsted jokes at school because I am DREADING them coming). My last blog was way back after the Main Event and the thoughts I had at that time are still running around my head. BUT maybe I am just staying quiet and hoping that the confusion will just go away......maybe though I should be being more pro-active about this. (Note: am I having a 'hot flush' whilst writing this? ..my palms are very clammy now that I'm typing....?)
So...taking 'bull by horns' I am trying now to be pro-active.....look for signs.....work harder at what I am doing, wherever I am doing it. Oh scary for an old girl who's just had another birthday but I don't want another one in confusion so here goes!!